Second Thoughts Before My Wedding: A Letter to Dear Christine About Relationship Concerns

Dear Christine, I AM 22 years old and my fiancé is 25. We are supposed to get married this October, but I am having second thoughts.

We have been together four years and were neighbours growing up.

We both dropped out of college, but I have always held down a full-time job, whereas he got laid off and spent a whole year unemployed.

I have a lot of resentment towards him because he had no excuse to not find a job. He didn’t have the “drive” or “ambition” that I wanted him to have.

Since last June, he has been a truck driver.

Also, he still lives at home, and the thought of him being so dependent on his parents bothers me.

A little over two years ago, he wanted for us to get married, but I kept telling him I wanted to wait until I was at least 23. He proposed after I turned 21. Some days I am so happy to be engaged to him and some days I am not.

In addition to our other issues, our sex life is not okay. He always wants to have sex and I hardly ever do. I do not really know why I do not because he is not a bad man, but I just feel like I am not attracted to him anymore. This is the only relationship I have ever been in and I do not want to lose him but I do not want to “settle” either.

I want to talk to him about it but I do not want to hurt him. I guess now that we are making down payments for venues, buying a wedding gown and setting up classes with my pastor, getting married is hitting me. I do not want to be a divorce statistic.

– D.Y. Dear D.Y., You cannot marry this guy. Everything about this relationship is wrong.

For starters, you love him, but you are not in love with him.

If anything is clear in your letter, it is that.

You do not have to worry about hurting him now, but you will definitely become a divorce statistic if you go ahead with the wedding. All the red lights are flashing before you, and that’s why you have reached out to Dear Christine.

Your heart is just not there.

And you know what? You’ll be fine without him. As long as you have been together, it must be scary to think about not being with him anymore, but as much time as you spend on your own, you have to know you will be okay by yourself, or just being friends with him if he allows that.

Eventually, you’ll find someone new if that is what you want, and you’ll be happy.

But please think very, very carefully about what kind of future you are going to have with this man if you do not leave him. You are not even happy in your present. How do you think your future is going to play out?

If he is still so dependent on his parents now, he is just going to be dependent on you in the future.

Do you want to be financially responsible for him the next time he gets laid off and decides he will take his time finding a new job?

Do you want to spend the rest of your life with a man you are not in love with just because he has been in your life so long? There needs to be more.